Why?

By Jessica Dyer

This is a tribute to my beautiful peaceful daughter Stella who was born asleep at 19 weeks.

Date: Wed, 20 Aug 2003

I still can't let this go
none can answer me, and I want to know.
Please don’t tell me
it must be "for the best"
I should have my baby asleep on my chest.
God gave her to me
then took her away
everything changed
just in one day.
I’m empty inside
with nothing to show
I can't see her now
or watch how she'd grow.
Ill never get the chance to see
the amazing woman she should be
I miss my daughter
I think it's unfair.
I feel people have forgotten her
and that they don’t care.
Nobody knows just how I feel
I still ask myself
if this is all real.
If I am asleep, please let me wake
My body is still
My arms and heart ache.
I have been blessed in my life
This is all true
but my heart has a place
that is forever blue.
I can not "forget her"
I can not "move on"
All I want is my baby
and you tell me "she’s gone".
How do I get through this?
How do I live?
All I have of her are memories
and the pain that they give.
I miss my baby
I should be hearing her cry
Please tell me why this happened
Please tell me why.