"A Word With Boo"

by Jo Gail Dolenski

Spring, Texas - My grandson, Jonathan, (Boo) lived with us and died of SIDS January 2, 1997, 3 days before his first birthday. I have been doing some writing and would like to share if anyone would like to share as this horrible loneliness is so painful. One of the poems directly related:

"A Word With Boo"

By Jo Gail Dolenski
3-24-97

I know in my heart it is wrong of me
To ask the Lord a favor....
For many years I have known His love
To live by and to savor.

Today has been a rough one, Lord,
Sadder than I have known...
I come to you with one request
Approaching you on your Throne...

I need to talk to Little Boo
Just one more time today....
For I long to let him see my heart
And what it has to say...

I need to tell him how he made
The sunshine come each day...
His little touch and his little smile
Were more than words could say.

Are you sure he's safe from harm?
For we always kept him so...
Or at least it seemed, for we promised him
When to sleep each night he would go.

He was my best pal, Lord, as you well know
Though not yet one year old...
We talked and laughed and sang all day
And all my secrets he was told.

He was the only grandson I had ever known
A precious gift from Thee...
The most beautiful joy I could ever behold
Or ever hope to see...

I know you must need him with you there
I am trying to understand...
But I need him too to walk with me
To hold his tiny hand...

You loaned him for a little while
And I really do thank you so....
I'm trying so hard to reason it all
At having to let him go...

You are just going to have to help me Lord
I come to you in pain....
Boo would not want me to be this sad
Or his life be all in vain...
So I ask you to be my agent...

To talk to Boo and say....
That I miss him now with all my might
Both my moonlight and by day...

Tell him his Nanna said hello
That my love for him is strong...
He was my life, my soul, My Boo
Forever my whole life long...

Kiss his tiny nose and brow
When you lay him down to sleep...
For on earth I am longing to do the same..
But can only sit and weep...

I will do my best while here on earth
Your servant now to be....
For heaven is my only goal
My Boo again to see....

Just one more word, Lord, then I'll go
To my silent reverie...
Tell Boo he was the most important thing
That ever happened to me...

My eyes will turn to heaven now
Today and my whole life through...
For one more word or one last chance...
To have a talk with Boo.....